Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts

Saturday, 17 November 2012

I never saw the world the way the city looks to me today; I never thought the end would come this way. These are the last words I'll say to you.


Wincing against the wind, I zipped up my coat as far as it would go and reached into the deep pockets. The fingers of my right hand wrapped around my trusty mobile phone, which I slid out. Quick swipe across the screen and a number tapped in, and I had everything at my fingertips.

Two missed calls, four text messages. Another few taps and I knew that my mother had tried calling me once, my father once, and the four messages were from my friend Zaz. I sighed, switched off my phone, and put it back in my pocket. I replaced it with a small scrap of pink lined paper screwed up in the depths of my pocket. I unwrapped it and squinted at the messily scrawled address as I walked.

 No. 6 College Street, Tywyllwch, I managed to make out.

 I glanced upwards. I was on a row of three storey houses, each with their own small front garden. They were pleasant enough houses, and I was currently stood outside number 4. Dragging my feet, I continued to the next house. Number 6.

 This was my new home for the year, in the small, rural town of Tywyllwch in mid-Wales. I was a fresher at the town’s university, Tywyllwch’s only claim to fame. And it wasn’t a bad house, either – maybe a little scruffier than the two sat on either side of it, and the windows were empty, the curtains closed, but the garden was neatly kept and the paint on the gate wasn’t peeling.

 I lifted the latch on the gate. It squawked as I pushed it open and stepped into the garden.

 Before I could start walking, the front door opened. A girl stepped out. “Well, yeah, fuck off, Harry,” she snapped into her mobile phone. She was tiny, this girl, probably not even five feet, but she packed a lot of curve into her short frame. Her hair was dark, to her shoulders, and her face was screwed up in anger. There was a cigarette, unlit, hanging from between her lips.

 “It’s not my problem you’re being an absolute wanker, though, is it?” she carried on, voice harsh. She nodded at me, left the door wide open, and rooted in the pocket of her cardigan. She pulled out a neon-pink lighter. “When you’re being like this, I can’t fucking talk to you. Tell you what, grow the fuck up and give me a call when the weed is out of your system, yeah?”

Then she hung up and slid her phone into her pocket, lit her cigarette. Narrowed her eyes at me.

 “Hey,” she said, not too welcoming. “You renting here?”

 I nodded. “Yeah. I haven’t got a key, though.”

 She shrugged one shoulder. “The landlord let me in before. He left them all. You’ve met him, right? I’m Nicki, by the way.”

 “Axie,” I said. “Shall I just go in?”

 ehhhhh something i've been working on. hmmmmmm
 
Lyrics: last words / the real tuesday weld

 

Sunday, 14 October 2012

If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this; all those fairy tales are full of shit. One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.

sooooo i haven't posted in a while

with good reason ofc i started uni on the 25th september, so i had to move and i've barely had any time to myself tbh..i'm mostly enjoying it. i like the social side, my new friends etc. but the work is an absolute bitch. i have this lecturer who i'm in two minds about - she's a brilliant lecturer, really knows her stuff, keeps it interesting, but she can be sooooo scary and she sets really awkward, difficult tasks about things we don't know about

like one monday she told us to write a 1000 essay for the thursday on subjects we'd never done before. and she's never satisfied with what you've done. it's so fucking hard it pisses me off i even fucking dream about her!

on the down side uni has meant i've had barely any time to myself to sit down and write stories. so i don't know when fate lines will next be updated. but i'm trying to fit it all in.

Lyrics: payphone / maroon 5

Friday, 24 August 2012

Now I am so lonely, it's the two of you; with his Abercrombie, he's so fucking cool

i'm in the middle of writing the epilogue for 'star rising' i seriously can't believe that the star book series is nearly over, it feels like i've only just started writing it haha..i hope to finish it and upload it by the end of today, then i can start planning my next story properly

Lyrics: boyfriend / schoolyard heroes

Come, break me down, bury me, bury me; I am finished with you. Look in my eyes, you're killing me, killing me; all I wanted was you

I'M SCARED now i have my alevel results going to uni is SO much more real i don't want to go i don't know if i can make friends and fit in and have a social life and still write and play the sims and be me i'm scared i don't know if i can do it i really don't but when i express this to my family they're just like 'you'll be fine'

how do you knoowwww though howww?

gah

Lyrics: the kill / 30 seconds to mars

Wednesday, 27 June 2012

Honey I will stitch you darling I will fit you in my heart honey I will meet you darling I will keep you in my heart

so ridiculously bored and i've hit another block with the next chapter of 'star rising' it doesn't want to be written :( obviously i'll do my best to try and get it done within the next day or so because i want to move on to the next chapter

Lyrics: day too soon / sia

Tuesday, 19 June 2012

And I keep looking for that blindfold faith lighting candles to a cynical saint who wants the last laugh at the fly trapped in the windowsill tape you can go right out of your mind trying to escape from the panicked paradox of day to day if you can't understand something then it's best to be afraid

it's my first day off work in agessss because i've got my english literature exam tomorrow (let's not talk about that) and i am so happy i'm just having a nice relaxed chilled out day i might write later i might not who knows the world is my oyster

down side is my brother and his wife are coming over later on..ysee she did a degree in graphic design and that's like her dream job and she's struggled getting proper jobs in it she finally got one but they won't offer her a pay rise and she went to wales to see a friend the other week and they saw a job being advertised in pembroke and she applied for it and got the job so chances are they'll be moving to pembrokeshire fairly soon which is weird but not that bad for me because i'll be an hour and a half away from them when i go to uni

but basically they're coming over to 'discuss it with us' and my other brother and my father aren't happy about the idea of them moving at all i can't help but feel like they wouldn't be so bothered if i wasn't going to uni this year as well, it's like in one go two of his children / siblings are moving away..i kind of get it but they've talked about moving to somewhere quieter before, it's been their goal to start a family somewhere nicer..oh i don't know i'm just not as bothered about it as i could be basically because in the end i'll be nearer to them..and i quite like the idea of having them closer

Lyrics: classic cars / bright eyes

Saturday, 9 June 2012

Watchng you walk I followed you there standing too close it's hurting I pictured the words the warmth of your breath I started the fire it's burning

oh and i have a title for my new story which i'm getting increasingly excited about :) i know a few things for definite

  1. it's partly based around the iliad
  2. the main character is called seren and she's a witch
  3. ty and charlotte are involved
  4. it's probably going to be heavier on the romance than the star books
eee i just want to write it

Lyrics: jealousy / will young

Friday, 8 June 2012

How can I begin again how can I try to love someone new someone who isn't you how can our love be true when I'm not over you I guess you know by now that we will meet again somehow

right now i wish i could upload my stories from my phone because fictionpress lets me log in on my phone but not on the computer fuck sake it's all written and ready..i'm just going to start writing the next chapter grrr

Lyrics: how / regina spektor

Say a prayer to yourself he says close your eyes sometimes it helps and then I get a scary thought that he's here means he's never lost

probably should be revising for english language but i can't make myself do it..right now playing harvest moon is much more interesting i mean i got a chick yesterday and i've got tomatoes to water yknow

i've finished chapter 20 of 'star rising' but fictionpress isn't letting me log in sorry

Lyrics: russian roulette / rihanna

Friday, 1 June 2012

I want to be drunk when I wake up on the right side of the wrong bed and every excuse I made up tell you the truth what didn't kill me it didn't make me stronger at all

sorry i haven't updated 'star rising' in a while, my classics exams were on tuesday and thursday and i've pretty much been revising since then what with work and everything i haven't had the energy motivation or clarity of mind to actually sit down and write a story because whenever i tried the attempts have been shit

but now classics is done i'm not struggling as much with other subjects so i might have time to write more often

Lyrics: drunk / ed sheeran

Sunday, 20 May 2012

Big dreams gangster said you had to leave to start your life over I was like no please stay here we don't need no money we can make it all work

the new story i'm writing after i've finished 'star rising' will feature ty and charlotte as two of the main characters, with the actual main character being called Seren James

it won't feature any other characters from the star books series though, just those two

Lyrics: blue jeans / lana del rey

Saturday, 19 May 2012

I'm tired of waiting I'm tired of thinking and it feels like jealousy and it feels like I can't breathe and I'm on down on my knees and it feels like jealousy

had another lazy day today i woke up late sorted out the excess of clothes in my wardrobe watched some TV with my dad whilst i worked on my classics notes, then i had a lie down before a really hot bath listening to soothy music..it's been really chilled out and now i'm watching 'monk' with my mum as i write the next chapter of 'star rising'

ahhhh happy

Lyrics: jealousy / will young

Tuesday, 15 May 2012

Silent between supplies and machines I'll hang in the corners like a ghost you know I live to be seen through

next chapter of 'star rising' is up :D we're not so far from the end now either

Lyrics: here is a heart / jenny owen youngs

Saturday, 12 May 2012

I'll let you get the best of me because there's nothing else I do well I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker I guess that's how this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker you've got me down on my knees and I proclaim all hail the heartbreaker

my grandparents have come over for tea

they don't live near us so we don't see them often just a couple of times a year but this is the first time in about three years that they've actually come to us they normally come up here so my grandmother can see her sister or her friends but they don't come to see us for some reason

so this is quite an unusual event

i'm just quietly writing the next chapter of 'star rising' alone in the living room trying not to feel a bit awkward haha

Lyrics: all hail the heartbreaker / the spill canvas

Friday, 11 May 2012

But when you walked out that door a piece of me died I told you I wanted more but that's not what I had in mind I just want it like before we were dancing all night then they took you away stole you out of my life you just need to remember

i've been thinking again about what i'll write when i'm done with the star books..it's definitely going to be based around the iliad, i just need to work out how which is going to be interesting

Lyrics: blue jeans / lana del rey

Monday, 7 May 2012

Destruction leads to a very rough road but it also breeds creation and earthquakes are to a girl's guitar they're just another good vibration and tidal waves couldn't save the world from Californication

today i went to an antiques fair with my two brothers and sister in law (plus her mother sister and her sister's husband)

we and my oldest brother had to get up at 8 because the other brother was picking us up at 9, so i had a really early start today and i'm tired now haha then we drove to the antiques fair

it was being held in a football stadium, and it was packed full of stores selling all sorts i'm not convinced they were all antiques or make that absolutely certain they weren't antiques haha but i didn't mind so much i like things like that anyway

the only problem were the serious collectors who take things very seriously and are intimidating with their in depth knowledge of what you're buying..that put me on edge a little i felt like i should try haggling when i bought things but there was no point really i don't regret spending what i did

i bought a tin and three brooches, spending £15 in all..pretty chuffed with what i bought too

£3 brooch

£4 brooch
£2 brooch
£6 tin
inside of tin and the little key which came with it
branding on bottom of tin
i'm really looking forward to going to the next fair haha they're really fascinating places that sell some interesting things, hopefully i'll have more money to spend this time because i've spent most of my last paycheque on my haircut, hair dye and paying back a friend for a train ticket haha

after the fair we went for a pub lunch which was nice and i had a lovely chocolate fudge cake for dessert then i came home and napped and read some more suetonius and watched britain's got talent and wrote more of the next chapter of 'star rising'

Lyrics: californication / red hot chili peppers

Tuesday, 1 May 2012

At this moment you mean everything with you in that dress oh my thoughts I confess verge on dirty

i've been thinking about the next fictionpress story i'll write when the star books are finished..

at the moment, i think that it's going to focus partly on the legend of the trojan war because i read the iliad last year and i loved it it's such a good story even if it was a little hard to read

i just think that there is so much more to the story than the horse and paris and the face that launched a thousand ships..the portrayal of the gods in homer's poem is really interesting to read and there are side plots to the story that are nice as well and plus i'm sick of the portrayal i see of paris/helen as if their story was some great romance because the way i see it, after reading the iliad, it was far from it

i think that people need to forget that the movie 'troy' ever happened or at least acknowledge its inaccuracy..like briseis wasn't trojan, she was a slave and achilles probably didn't love her at all

it wouldn't be set in ancient troy btw..it'd be set in present day. i'm still working it out haha

Lyrics: come on eileen / dexy's midnight runners

Monday, 30 April 2012

Scar tissue that I wish you saw sarcastic mister know it all close your eyes and I'll kiss you because with the birds I'll share this lonely view

i bought a notebook from paperchase on saturday it cost me £10 but it was so pretty and it has birds on the front and birdcages and it's blue and pink and yellow and i really like it i nearly bought one that had hand stitched bunting on the front but i thought hey i can always get that another time

i wanted it to write notes for a story i'm dreaming up in my head..it's coming to me in bits and pieces and i'm not forcing it i'm just letting it all come naturally and making notes when they come to me and i'm not being too fussy about the presentation because after all no one is going to see it but me

hopefully it will come to something..i mean i'm pretty excited about it atm because the ideas i'm coming up with are very interesting to me and combine a lot of things i like, it's not something i'd post online though..just something for me haha

Lyrics: scar tissue / red hot chili peppers

Friday, 27 April 2012

For once you hit the spot twice you let it fall and once I tried to make a life to keep myself in yours

did you know that lord byron owned a bear? according to stephen fry (who knows everything) he used to keep it in his rooms at cambridge and when they told him that he wasn't allowed to keep domesticated animals in the building he said that it was fine because the bear was wild

i find lord byron incredibly fascinating he was so..eccentric, for lack of a better word hahahaha

Lyrics: we almost had a baby / emmy the great

Tuesday, 24 April 2012

You went back to what you knew so far removed from all that we went through and I tread a troubled track my odds are stacked I'll go back to black we only said goodbye with words I died a hundred times you go back to her and I go back to I go back to us

it's just hit me that there's only a short time before i leave college for study leave

stupid thing is, most of my exams are over by the time study leave begins so i don't really get that but who cares, it's a few weeks off. that said though it's a bit scary that i'm leaving college soon..there'll be like months of me not having anything to do but sit around the house all the time

but maybe i'll have time to finish 'star rising' and perhaps move on to a new story of some kind..who knows?

Lyrics: back to black / amy winehouse