Come, break me down, bury me, bury me; I am finished with you. Look in my eyes, you're killing me, killing me; all I wanted was you

I'M SCARED now i have my alevel results going to uni is SO much more real i don't want to go i don't know if i can make friends and fit in and have a social life and still write and play the sims and be me i'm scared i don't know if i can do it i really don't but when i express this to my family they're just like 'you'll be fine'

how do you knoowwww though howww?

gah

Lyrics: the kill / 30 seconds to mars

My nihilist my happy man my manic and I have no plans to move on

i go through weird cycles sometimes and i swear that this is one of them

i feel kind of apathetic and a general hatred towards the human race where i feel like nothing is worth it and i don't know what i'm living for..it's like everything i do is futile and pointless and i hate it

i think about the future and i just wonder why? why does it have to be like that?

and i'm scared that things won't work out for me

i'm scared of so many things that i'm starting to think it might be a problem..i thought i had got over this but clearly i haven't

i don't know anymore..i'm generally a very happy person but then things creep up on me and i get so wound up i can't even think about anything else

i really shouldn't let things get to me as much as i do but i feel like i have to be strong for everyone else i know and it kills me

Lyrics: my manic and I / laura marling