How you see me how you see me you say that you can see me but I can't see you looking anymore how you know me how you know me you saying that you know me but I don't see us talking anymore

i went to that fancy dress party last night i went as a crap / slightly slutty audrey hepburn..it wasn't as bad as i was expecting i did end up sat on my own for a while but i didn't really mind i had three pints of cider and enjoyed watching everybody else making a tit of themselves on the dancefloor

i was pretty drunk by the time i got home though i tried to climb the stairs like they were a mountain and my mum had to put me to bed i can't really handle alcohol

and today i went out for a meal with my family because it's father's day and we went shopping as well i bought a couple of necklaces a cardigan some earrings..i also went shopping with my mother yesterday and bought a few things it's been a good weekend basically

Lyrics: open up your arms / ren harvieu

Destruction leads to a very rough road but it also breeds creation and earthquakes are to a girl's guitar they're just another good vibration and tidal waves couldn't save the world from Californication

today i went to an antiques fair with my two brothers and sister in law (plus her mother sister and her sister's husband)

we and my oldest brother had to get up at 8 because the other brother was picking us up at 9, so i had a really early start today and i'm tired now haha then we drove to the antiques fair

it was being held in a football stadium, and it was packed full of stores selling all sorts i'm not convinced they were all antiques or make that absolutely certain they weren't antiques haha but i didn't mind so much i like things like that anyway

the only problem were the serious collectors who take things very seriously and are intimidating with their in depth knowledge of what you're buying..that put me on edge a little i felt like i should try haggling when i bought things but there was no point really i don't regret spending what i did

i bought a tin and three brooches, spending £15 in all..pretty chuffed with what i bought too

£3 brooch



£4 brooch

£2 brooch

£6 tin

inside of tin and the little key which came with it

branding on bottom of tin

i'm really looking forward to going to the next fair haha they're really fascinating places that sell some interesting things, hopefully i'll have more money to spend this time because i've spent most of my last paycheque on my haircut, hair dye and paying back a friend for a train ticket haha

after the fair we went for a pub lunch which was nice and i had a lovely chocolate fudge cake for dessert then i came home and napped and read some more suetonius and watched britain's got talent and wrote more of the next chapter of 'star rising'

Lyrics: californication / red hot chili peppers

You are the hole in my head you are the space in my bed you are the silence in between what I thought and what I said

today has actually been really busy i went shopping with my mother and blew almost my entire wage on clothes for Pompeii and on random jewellery as usual hahaha

i'm exhausted now though..i was up too early and out too long, just relaxing now and waiting for food :)

Lyrics: no light, no light / florence + the machine

Slowly walking down the hall faster than a cannonball where were you while we were getting high someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide in a champagne supernova in the sky

had a good day went shopping with my friends way too early got my ear pierced, not the daith as planned because the piercer said that he thought that area on my ear wasn't pronounced enough and besides he didn't have any jewellery for it, so i got my conch done instead, wish i'd gone for the rook but at least i've got experience with a conch before haha, and then we went shopping in this really cool building made up of little independent stores, i bought a bag with 'my neighbour totoro' on it and a necklace and some socks, then we went round the proper shopping centre but there wasn't much there so we went to the mcdonalds nearby for our dinner :) felt very fat afterwards but i'm sure i walked off the 1000000+ calories i amassed there just going around primark lmao..

seriously tired now though, glad i'm at home and i'm ready to write!

Lyrics: champagne supernova / oasis

We have the answer to all your fears it's short it's simple it's crystal clear it's round about and it's somewhere here lost amongst our winnings

oh and did i mention that my new jewellery arrived? i'm now the proud owner of a necklace with a sugar mouse on it and a gummy bear ring, i also want a liquorice allsorts bracelet but that can wait till payday

Lyrics: o children / nick cave and the bad seeds

I said I don't kiss losers and I don't kiss winners and I don't fight for honour because we are all born sinners

nice day consisting of shopping with my mother and watching pointless telly :) i bought two necklaces, a sketch pad and some bits and pieces because i reallllly miss making random pictures and stuff

i'll probably get bored of it within the next week hahaha

Lyrics: your honor / regina spektor

So we struggle and we stagger down the snakes and up the ladder to the tower where the blessed hours chime

it's payday so i just bought myself some boots and a dress. once the money has gone out of my account i'm gonna put some away for pompeii and the rest will probs go on jewellery which makes me happy.

my brother's car broke down today right outside college and that was a bit awkward. an hour of sitting in the freezing cold knowing that a warm welcoming cafe was only metres away haha but not being able to leave your brother who would be classed as an 'intruder' on campus because he isn't a student or staff lol but then the aa came and replaced his battery and we went home

also missed a lesson this morning because it was like mcdonalds breakfast or an hour of english language and to be honest a bacon sandwich won on this occasion

i need my bed now.

Lyrics: closing time / leonard cohen

This is the highlight of your miserable lives a pessimist is never disappointed

Coveting the dresses on dollydagger, wish I could afford them :( I'll have to settle for the jewellery instead

Lyrics: a pessimist is never disappointed / theaudience