When I'm down, and my hands are tied, I cannot reach a pen for me to draw the line; from this pain I just can't disguise, it's gonna hurt but I'll have to say goodbye

right now i couldn't give less of a shit about my weight, this is the conclusion i have come to i am pretty happy with my body so what does anyone else matter? seriously society shouldn't be able to dictate i should look more like a victoria's secret model, it's never going to happen..partly because i'm not built like that, i've always been chubby, and secondly, i lack the drive to get up off my arse and do something about it

i just really object to people saying that we NEED to have a healthy diet and exercise because i have never ever enjoyed exercise or sports and i'm too picky to have a completely balanced diet. i have never ever made excuses about my weight because i accept that it's largely my fault because i don't exercise and eat healthy but i figure that there are so many things that people do everyday that aren't good for them but no one tells them to stop that

at the end of the day, eating food and lounging around everyday makes me happy so why should i change that because someone on the telly says the olympics should have inspired me to start playing tennis or whatever? STOP IT i mean seriously i feel like the entertainment industry should stop telling people how to live their lives, even if it's just stopping gossip magazines from calling stick thin girls fat because they have a tiny tummy or criticising celebrities for not dropping the baby weight as soon as they give birth, or if it's tv cooking shows making sure that we're cooking with semi-skimmed milk and don't you DARE put butter on that sandwich..

it's just so stupid and annoying, if i want to be a size 16 that's my business it's nothing to do with anyone else at all

Lyrics: dreaming of you / the coral

Summer in the city means cleavage, cleavage, cleavage, and I start to miss you, baby, sometimes

i enjoy the jeremy kyle show but sometimes it's sad like now you watch it and this girl's world is crumbling around her and the whole studio is silent even jeremy kyle isn't speaking it's so so so sad..put a bit of a downer on the day tbh i got up early to make welsh cakes and i was chuffed with my achievements

now i just feel sad

oh dear

Lyrics: summer in the city / regina spektor

She said I love you boy, I love you so, she said I love you baby, oh, oh, oh, she said I love you more than words can say, she said I love you baby

you know what else is depressing (aside from university and the idea of my thighs in disco pants)? the fact that the series of jeremy kyle currently being shown on itv is one i've already seen and i can remember what happens because i've remembered every episode that's been shown for the past couple of weeks now that is sad the state of my life right there

Lyrics: she said / plan b

Up in my lonely room, when I'm dreaming of you, oh, what can I do? I still need you but, I don't want you now

Lyrics: dreaming of you / the coral

And now I'm looking for a reason why, you've even set my world into motion, 'cause if you're not really here then the stars don't even matter

awwww fawlty towers! not watched it in years hahaha i wanted to watch the first series but i can't find the disc soooo i'm making do with series 2 which i watched to death when i was little there was a time when i could quote it automatically but it does make me laugh

Lyrics: black and gold / sam sparro

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart, tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising, just be true to who you are

watching the olympics closing ceremony now because i missed it last night watching big brother..i'm actually watching that other bit like where they go on about how fucking awesome britain is before it. we're on mo farah now, i've got a loooooong way to go haha

Lyrics: who you are / jessie j

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart tears don't mean you're losing everybody's bruising just be true to who you are

Oh there ain't no love no Montagues or Capulets just banging tunes and DJ sets and dirty dance floors and dreams of naughtiness

i've actually kind of warmed to the idea of the olympics since my incredibly bitter unpatriotic posts but tbf i think getting so many gold medals fit guys and tom daley all by himself have certainly helped me feel slightly more proud to be british

plus i kind of loved the opening ceremony i'm just saying it was marvellous the first bit anyway not so much when that girl with the hair was prancing about looking for her phone that was just a bit odd

Lyrics: i bet that you look good on the dance floor / arctic monkeys

That's what all my friends I do not like as much as you say

Lyrics: if you wanna / the vaccines

Did I break open your heart as long as we're together or as long as we're apart if I could make it up to you tonight would you send me out a signal from your broken satellite

honestly i'm surprised it's not a jeremy kyle olympic special where he does dna tests for the great british team and screams in their faces because they haven't got a proper job or something

Lyrics: a satellite stars and an ocean behind you / the submarines

Remember the time we wrote our names upon the wall remember the time we realised Thriller was our favourite song

it's probably incredibly unpatriotic of me to say this but i already can't be arsed with the olympics..every time it's mentioned on the telly i feel like shouting 'fuck off' at the people wittering on about it it's like no one cares

i mean they do obviously but seriously do we need russell watson singing we are the champions at half-eight in the morning? seriously? is that getting anyone into the olympic spirit? because all it made me want to do was pour bleach down my ears, curl up and cry

Lyrics: hit or miss / new found glory

I know I gave it to you months ago I know you're trying to forget but between the drinks and subtle things the holes in my apologies you know I'm trying hard to take it back so if by the time the bar closes and you feel like falling down I'll carry you home

ohhhh i have MISSSED the only way is essex! a row between lucy mario joey and sam..yep i've definitely missed it haha

Lyrics: we are young / fun.

I know I know that I could live in whatever house you choose to build and I will model myself on it and wait for you alone while you are out making a life for us I will stay and watch the days go past and I'll see how the plants advance and they turn on what they know

incidentally i'm watching 'a scandal in belgravia' once more because i finished rewatching series 1 of sherlock yesterday..i have such a girl crush on irene adler

Lyrics: a woman a woman a century of sleep / emmy the great

And my very close companion gets me fumbling gets me laughing she's a hundred but she's wearing something tight and I lift my glass to the awful truth which you can't reveal to the ears of youth except to say it isn't worth a dime

Lyrics: closing time / leonard cohen

I was just guessing at numbers and figures pulling the puzzles apart questions of science science and progress do not speak as loud as my heart and tell me you love me come back and haunt me oh and I rush to the start running in circles chasing our tails coming back as we are

Lyrics: the scientist / coldplay

I have this breath and I hold it tight and I keep it in my chest with all my might I pray to God this breath will last as it pushes past my lips as I gasp

i'm so chuffed series 2 of sherlock came to day and i'm watching the first episode i love the chemistry between sherlock and irene adler

Lyrics: between two lungs / florence and the machine

Once my lover now my friend what a cruel thing to pretend what a cunning way to condescend once my lover and now my friend

Lyrics: shadowboxer / fiona apple

I thought I knew myself somehow you know me more I've never known this never before you're the first to make out whenever we argue I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know you

i woke up at 9 on the dot and lounged around reading an ebook i bought last night rather stupidly because it's drained my money -.- i'm up now watching jeremy kyle ohh it makes me laugh

Lyrics: my same / adele

Grant my last request and just let me hold you don't shrug your shoulders lay down beside me sure I can accept that we're going nowhere but one last time let's go there lay down beside me

watching gavin and stacey :) i've not watched it in a while but it's such a pleasant show to watch

Lyrics: last request / paolo nutini

I let the beast in too soon I don't know how to live without my hand on his throat I fight him always and still oh darling it's so sweet you think you know how crazy how crazy I am

Lyrics: fast as you can / fiona apple

Sleep sleep on the floor knock on the door to tell me if you want some more I can't relate to what's on your plate my appetite never failed before

the only way is marbs, a cup of tea, chocolate cakes cooling in the kitchen..happy :)

Lyrics: run / stephen fretwell