You've got me standing in an awkward position, with unwanted attention and a need for explanations and, it's not that I'm letting go of you, but I don't know what to do

i'm going shopping tomorrow with my best friends we were supposed to be buying uni shit but we all went out and bought it separately so we're just kind of going shopping but it's okay i want to buy the sims 3 supernatural (eeeee!) and the hunger games dvd and i might unnecessarily buy some clothes too even though i don't need any new ones and i might buy a book and some high heels because i literally have nothing else i need to spend this money on

so i'm going to come home tomorrow with a hoard of crap :)

Lyrics: skeleton song / kate nash

Some men crave women and some men crave gold some folks die too young and some die too old some just want to pass time with liquor and cards some work to the top and then some don't get far boy decide boy decide you're too old to fuck around and too young to die time to try life on for size

i've been discussing the trip to edinburgh i'm taking in july because i don't know what clothes to take :( not good i found out i get paid this friday and that's the last payday before we go to edinburgh it's so unfortunate

gah i don't know what to takeee

Lyrics: boy decide / murder by death

You're Stephanie and I'm Paulette you know what all my faces mean and it's easy to smoke it up forget everything that happened in between

i was planning on getting another ear piercing on saturday but i don't have enough money which is annoying tbh not if i want to go to the cinema and shopping..it's £15 for all cartilage piercings at the place i go to so it doesn't really matter which specific piercing i get

but i was thinking about getting a helix piercing..one quite low down, i think..either that or a rook. i'm kind of entranced by the idea of getting an industrial piercing though but it's like the only piercing that my mum and dad are like NO DON'T GET IT (i mean aside from tongue/nose/lip)

i just like the way they look..i suppose the same could be said for tongue piercings though because i do like the idea of having my tongue pierced i mean if i got it done my parents wouldn't like disown me they'd just go 'oh cool' and quietly fume, i could probably handle the pain i just don't like the idea of like chipping my teeth or biting it by accident or the idea of getting food on it kind of turns my stomach..

but there's always time in the future

Lyrics: best friend / amy winehouse

I thought I knew myself somehow you know me more I've never known this never before you're the first to make out whenever we argue I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know you

i woke up at 9 on the dot and lounged around reading an ebook i bought last night rather stupidly because it's drained my money -.- i'm up now watching jeremy kyle ohh it makes me laugh

Lyrics: my same / adele

I did my best it wasn't much I couldn't feel so I tried to touch I've told the truth I didn't come to fool you and even though it all went wrong I'll stand before the lord of song with nothing on my tongue but hallelujah

my new shoes :D i'm really pleased with them! they looked lovely on the website but nicer in person and they look good on i'm really happy pleased i bought them

bought from asos.com, costing £18 with free super saver delivery if anyone is wondering

Lyrics: hallelujah / leonard cohen



Every night I remember that evening the way you looked when you said you were leaving the way you cried as you turned to walk away the cruel worlds and the false accusations the mean looks and the same old frustrations I never thought that we'd throw it all away but we threw it all away

i just bought sherlock series 2, forgetting sarah marshall, 27 dresses, knight and day, and death at a funeral so i have things to watch next week i wanted to get the inbetweeners box set but it was too expensive for my liking haha

then i bought the first series of bleach boxset for my friend because it's her birthday next week

Lyrics: this ain't a love song / scouting for girls

How you see me how you see me you say that you can see me but I can't see you looking anymore how you know me how you know me you saying that you know me but I don't see us talking anymore

i went to that fancy dress party last night i went as a crap / slightly slutty audrey hepburn..it wasn't as bad as i was expecting i did end up sat on my own for a while but i didn't really mind i had three pints of cider and enjoyed watching everybody else making a tit of themselves on the dancefloor

i was pretty drunk by the time i got home though i tried to climb the stairs like they were a mountain and my mum had to put me to bed i can't really handle alcohol

and today i went out for a meal with my family because it's father's day and we went shopping as well i bought a couple of necklaces a cardigan some earrings..i also went shopping with my mother yesterday and bought a few things it's been a good weekend basically

Lyrics: open up your arms / ren harvieu

Maybe I'll write him a story and maybe I'll fall asleep in his arms maybe I'll wake up lonely and fallen away again until you calm me down I'll race around this town

got paid today i was soooo happy all the extra time last week means i got paid more and i forgot about another extra day i did because i got paid more than i thought i would so i am ecstatic! gonna buy that pair of shoes i had my eye on and i'm going shopping with my mother tomorrow

i was supposed to be going shopping with her today but it's throwing it down and i cba going out and getting soaked just to buy some hair dye

Lyrics: tap at my window / laura marling

I can't say I blame you but I wish that I could I'm sick of writing every song about you

ebooks are such a rip off on ibooks the two other books in the fifty shades trilogy are £4.50 each and i bought them both as paperbacks today for £3 each i mean why is it more expensive for it to be on an iphone? it just doesn't add up

Lyrics: head club / taking back sunday

Honey honey out on the sea in the doldrums thinking of me me on dry land thinking of he honey honey not next to me even if he wanted to even if he wanted to even if he wanted to do you think he'd come back would he come back

i ordered a print to put in my room over a week ago and it still hasn't arrived yet :( i ordered two on the same day and the other one arrived two days later..i don't get that haha

Lyrics: honey honey / feist

Destruction leads to a very rough road but it also breeds creation and earthquakes are to a girl's guitar they're just another good vibration and tidal waves couldn't save the world from Californication

today i went to an antiques fair with my two brothers and sister in law (plus her mother sister and her sister's husband)

we and my oldest brother had to get up at 8 because the other brother was picking us up at 9, so i had a really early start today and i'm tired now haha then we drove to the antiques fair

it was being held in a football stadium, and it was packed full of stores selling all sorts i'm not convinced they were all antiques or make that absolutely certain they weren't antiques haha but i didn't mind so much i like things like that anyway

the only problem were the serious collectors who take things very seriously and are intimidating with their in depth knowledge of what you're buying..that put me on edge a little i felt like i should try haggling when i bought things but there was no point really i don't regret spending what i did

i bought a tin and three brooches, spending £15 in all..pretty chuffed with what i bought too

£3 brooch



£4 brooch

£2 brooch

£6 tin

inside of tin and the little key which came with it

branding on bottom of tin

i'm really looking forward to going to the next fair haha they're really fascinating places that sell some interesting things, hopefully i'll have more money to spend this time because i've spent most of my last paycheque on my haircut, hair dye and paying back a friend for a train ticket haha

after the fair we went for a pub lunch which was nice and i had a lovely chocolate fudge cake for dessert then i came home and napped and read some more suetonius and watched britain's got talent and wrote more of the next chapter of 'star rising'

Lyrics: californication / red hot chili peppers

Inside out upside down twisting beside myself stop that now because you and I were never meant to be I think you'd better leave it's not safe in here I feel a weakness coming on

i was english literature today and my friends came in and one of them said 'i was reading this magazine and there was a woman in it who sold her dirty knickers to men on the internet and she makes £100 a day and about £7000 a month..would you sell your dirty knickers?'

for that money i so totally would, which is what i said to her and then we got onto a discussion about what you would/wouldn't do for a million pounds and the conclusion is

there is not much i wouldn't do for a million pounds, no exaggeration whatsoever just like my friend T whilst our other friends were much more cautious

i mean it shouldn't have come as such a shock to them considering i'd sell a stranger my dirty knickers for £100

does that make me a bad person i don't know haha

Lyrics: the walk / imogen heap

Scar tissue that I wish you saw sarcastic mister know it all close your eyes and I'll kiss you because with the birds I'll share this lonely view

i bought a notebook from paperchase on saturday it cost me £10 but it was so pretty and it has birds on the front and birdcages and it's blue and pink and yellow and i really like it i nearly bought one that had hand stitched bunting on the front but i thought hey i can always get that another time

i wanted it to write notes for a story i'm dreaming up in my head..it's coming to me in bits and pieces and i'm not forcing it i'm just letting it all come naturally and making notes when they come to me and i'm not being too fussy about the presentation because after all no one is going to see it but me

hopefully it will come to something..i mean i'm pretty excited about it atm because the ideas i'm coming up with are very interesting to me and combine a lot of things i like, it's not something i'd post online though..just something for me haha

Lyrics: scar tissue / red hot chili peppers

In a car with a girl promise me she's not your world because Andy you're a star in nobody's eyes but mine

on a brighter note, i'm getting my other tragus pierced tomorrow yayay i kind of want something else done like rook or antitragus because that's brand new but tragus is familiar and i know how much it hurts

but yeah i'll be nice and even then..i'm going shopping after with my friends i'm hoping to buy some post it notes for revision some hand sanitiser that's nicer than my father's a notepad to make notes in and um probably some clothes and jewellery because i'm me and i can't leave the house without buying that sort of thing

they're going to see a film but it's a horror film and they freak me out so i'm just going home instead

Lyrics: andy you're a star / the killers

The greatest times I don't want to hear it your new laughter lines I don't want to hear it the new found friends she introduced you to I don't want to know them I just want to be with you please don't make me go to New York

still haven't invested in those comedies i wanted..unfortunately my favourites have been taken off the on demand service on my TV so i can't watch them atm

need to buy them so i have some stuff to watch but i guess bleach will keep me occupied for quite a while

Lyrics: new york / paloma faith

You want a lover who takes time over her looks not some stupid kid who's always wrapped up in her books but can I help it if a sentence makes me cry and the pavement makes me cry and the thought of you and I

i'm going shopping w/ my friend in a bit before i go to my grandparents this evening and then to the uni

i'm prettttty scared about going to the uni i mean what if i do something wrong or embarrassing? or worse my parents haha

but i'm focusing on shopping atm i just need to wait for her to get to my house

Lyrics: atoms / emmy the great

Don't you ever don't you ever stop being dandy show me that you're handsome

Imma go shopping tomorrow and buy a present for mothers day and a dress for a party and maybe some other things too, I'll be all on my ownsome but I don't care sometimes I like to shop on my own

Lyrics: prince charming / Adam and the ants

No girl who's in my little red book just ever could replace your love and each girl in my little red book knows you're the one I'm thinking of

i'm just going to go and buy things i got paid today so why the hell not i need treating for getting a b in that english lit exam i was sure i was going to fail

i mean i'm resitting it anyway which will mean rereading frankenstein which makes me feel sick but needs must i suppose

Lyrics: my little red book / love

You are the hole in my head you are the space in my bed you are the silence in between what I thought and what I said

today has actually been really busy i went shopping with my mother and blew almost my entire wage on clothes for Pompeii and on random jewellery as usual hahaha

i'm exhausted now though..i was up too early and out too long, just relaxing now and waiting for food :)

Lyrics: no light, no light / florence + the machine

Bleaching your teeth smiling flash talking trash under your breath bleaching your teeth smiling flash talking trash under my window

day off today and i'm sat around waiting for a package to arrive that i missed everyday last week i think that it's my dress and boots hopefully or it might be the book i need for coursework

i'm hoping for the dress and boots if i'm honest..

Lyrics: anthems for a 17 year old girl / broken social scene