I want love to forget that you offended me or how you defended me when everybody tore me down yeah and I want love to change my friends to enemies change my friends to enemies and show me how it's all my fault

i think it's warm outside? i can't be sure because i'm in all day now it's the holidays the only chance i have to actually experience true weather is when i go to work and then i'm always unpleasantly surprised by how warm it is considering i dress for winter when i'm having a lazy day

Lyrics: love interruption / jack white

And I keep looking for that blindfold faith lighting candles to a cynical saint who wants the last laugh at the fly trapped in the windowsill tape you can go right out of your mind trying to escape from the panicked paradox of day to day if you can't understand something then it's best to be afraid

it's my first day off work in agessss because i've got my english literature exam tomorrow (let's not talk about that) and i am so happy i'm just having a nice relaxed chilled out day i might write later i might not who knows the world is my oyster

down side is my brother and his wife are coming over later on..ysee she did a degree in graphic design and that's like her dream job and she's struggled getting proper jobs in it she finally got one but they won't offer her a pay rise and she went to wales to see a friend the other week and they saw a job being advertised in pembroke and she applied for it and got the job so chances are they'll be moving to pembrokeshire fairly soon which is weird but not that bad for me because i'll be an hour and a half away from them when i go to uni

but basically they're coming over to 'discuss it with us' and my other brother and my father aren't happy about the idea of them moving at all i can't help but feel like they wouldn't be so bothered if i wasn't going to uni this year as well, it's like in one go two of his children / siblings are moving away..i kind of get it but they've talked about moving to somewhere quieter before, it's been their goal to start a family somewhere nicer..oh i don't know i'm just not as bothered about it as i could be basically because in the end i'll be nearer to them..and i quite like the idea of having them closer

Lyrics: classic cars / bright eyes

Now I'm relieved to hear that you've been to some far out places it's hard to carry on when you feel all alone now I've swung back down again it's worse than it was before if I hadn't seen such riches I could live with being poor

had a good bank holiday weekend :) went out shopping on saturday spent nearly all of my last pay cheque then that night i went out w/ my friends and got pleasantly drunk and then i had a lazy day on sunday, a family barbeque last night and today we went to this village that had roman ruins and a museum and we had lunch in this lovely village pub

ahhhh it's been nice and i'm not in college now so yeah i'm going to be writing like crazyyy

Lyrics: sit down / james

So lately been wondering who will be there to take my place when I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face if a great wave shall fall it would fall upon us all and between the sand and stone could you make it on your own

tomorrow is my day off and i can finally finish my notes on the emperors and just read them and read them and read them and read them until my exam which is next thursday and i don't know if i can pass haha my first classics exam is on the tuesday but i'm less bothered about it because it's the greek mythology bit and i understand literature much better

but we'll see i suppose

Lyrics: wherever you will go / the calling

The looking glass so shiny and new how quickly the glamour fades I start spinning slipping out of time was that the wrong pill to take

spent all morning sticking post it notes with english language definitions on them so my thumbs are as sore as fuck haha

but never mind at least i have the phrase 'periphrastic do' stuck to my bedroom wall now..

i'm just having a little break before i start making some classics notes..again

Lyrics: rabbit heart (raise it up) / florence and the machine

She said don't don't let it go to your head boys like you are dime a dozen boys like you are dime a dozen she said you're a touch overrated you're a lush and I hate it but these grass stains on my knees they won't mean a thing

i am so looking forward to tomorrow

i get a lie in and then i'm going to finish my english notes as i watch bleach which i've already seen before so it doesn't matter if i don't watch it properly

but it's the english dubbed version which normally i don't like because they go for such cheesy american voices but that can be hilarious sometimes so that's all right just hope they don't dub the theme tune because that'd ruin it for me

then i'm going to work and that's a bit crap but what can i do

Lyrics: you're so last summer / taking back sunday

Now I've only ever offered you myself and you always say it's not enough

eeee i missed the first episode of towie but its all right because i've caught the second one on catch up and i've got last night's episode to watch tomorrow when i'm off

but tomorrow is also bleach time because the first series came on saturday while i was down south

which i'll discuss tomorrow because i've been to the harry potter studios this weekend and it was sososo good

Lyrics: bricks / jenny owen youngs

So maybe I do not have the time fair weather friends of mine a year's a long time to be doing nothing with your life

today was my day off

i didn't do anything all day but play around on pottermore, i forgot how much i lovelovelove harry potter tbh. i can't wait for this weekend now i just want to see it all

btw i'm a ravenclaw, my wand is alder with a unicorn hair core, 12 and 1/4 inches, springy and i'm shit at making potions but what can you do?

now i'm waiting to watch the great british menu before bed, i'm so tired because i worked extra hard at work today to make sure everything was in tip top shape for the inspection tomorrow that probably won't happen because our supervisor is terrible at her job and can't clean for shit

Lyrics: our bovine public / the cribs

Kiss kiss fall in love maybe you're my love

basically i bought the entire series of ouran highschool host club on dvd today for £12

that's my next week off sorted haha

Lyrics: sakura kiss / chieco kawabe

Moved out of the house so you moved next door I locked you out you cut a hole in the wall I found you sleeping next to me I thought I was alone you're driving me crazy when are you coming home

aaaaand i got my wish i am now off again

goes without saying that i am already bored haha

i'm planning on writing today, i'm enjoying the new chapter too much as wordy as it's turning out to be..but i think that the plot is moving on quite nicely now so i can't complain

Lyrics: laid / james

Skipping beats blushing cheeks I am struggling daydreaming bed scenes in the corner cafe

as much as i complained about having a day off i'm now hating college and wish i was off again..

i don't actually understand the work that i am doing at the moment, two of my subjects make no sense (and i want to study one of them at university) and the other is all right but it could be better

to make things worse i have 2 weeks and then i find out my results, i bet i have failed completely would not surprise me at all

Lyrics: goodnight and go / imogen heap

It was a lie when they smiled and said you won't feel a thing

Ahhh Jeremy Kyle on a Tuesday morning

At least I'm not them. That's all I have to say hahahaha

Lyrics: disenchanted / my chemical romance

Now it's nice one geezer and that's as far as the conversation goes

i'm taking the day off tomorrow just because i feel like i need a break from college for a bit

i'll probably spend it writing or doing random shiz on my laptop whilst watching random tv and googling ear piercings

thankfully the blisters on my tragus/conch have more or less gone away but it still hurts like a bitch so i'm going to wait a little longer before getting my helix pierced..

in other news i've hit a point where i'm more obsessed with american dad than family guy when did that happen??

Lyrics: sorted out for e's and whizz / pulp

My therapist said not to see you no more she said you're like a disease without any cure

Watching American dad in bed...the day off tomorrow seems glorious (forgetting that I'm still in work).

I'm sleepy so I'll probably switch off after this episode finishes. Where does the day go at all?

Lyrics: laid / james

It's like forgetting the words to your favourite song you can't believe it you were always singing along it was so easy and the words so sweet

Home at last haha. Tired want to crawl straight into bed

Tomorrow is my day off college, think I might bake cupcakes tomorrow and play sims 3 and write... Le world is my oyster. Catch up on tv have a towie Christmas special to enjoy lol.

My legs feel numb -_-

Lyrics: eet / Regina spektor

Used to be one if the rotten ones and I liked you for that

So I've got about an hour and a half before I have to be in work. Probably the most depressing thing about today ugh cba with urinals and bins and mirrors and desks and pervy old men that wink at me.

Up side, a new guy starts work tonight and I get an apron...how interesting.

Lyrics: anthems for a 17 year old girl / broken social scene