I don't mind you coming here and wasting all my time because when you're standing oh so near I kind of lose my mind it's not the perfume that you wear it's not the ribbons in your hair I don't mind you coming here and wasting all my time

i feel sooooo sleepy :( i have no energy to do anything but mess about with the lives of my sims family and watch bonekickers..again

Lyrics: just what i needed / cars

They made a statue of us and put it on a mountain top now tourists come and stare at us blow bubbles with their gum take photographs have fun have fun

on tuesday i went to edinburgh :) we got the train to edinburgh and it took like 3 hours and 45 minutes i felt sick at first but then we started discussing things like 'for a hundred pounds would you strip naked and run up and down the train?' so it distracted me

then we arrived in edinburgh and went straight to the hotel which was only like a 10 minute walk away from the train station, we had two rooms for the 6 of us the rooms were pretty simple but comfortable enough..we hung around there for a bit then had a wander around the high street to find somewhere to eat that night and we found this place called frankensteins which did food and cocktails

we went back to the hotel after buying some alcohol from tescos haha and got ready to go out again the restaurant was nice the food was good and the atmosphere was friendly but we went back to the hotel earlier than we thought we would because we were so tired from travelling

back at the hotel we drank some more, chatted and then went to bed

Lyrics: us / regina spektor

Moved out of the house so you moved next door I locked you out you cut a hole in the wall I found you sleeping next to me I thought I was alone you're driving me crazy when are you coming home

sorry the last few days have been ridiculously hectic, i'm so tired :(

Lyrics: laid / james

Just put back the car keys or somebody's going to get hurt who are you calling at this hour sit down come round I need you now we'll work it all out together we're getting nowhere tonight now sleep I promise it'll all seem better somehow in time

i had my english literature exam this morning..it wasn't that bad it was probably the neatest exam script i've ever handed in though because i just decided to take my time with it not that it improved my answer any

then i got home and my brother left work early and suggested that we went to the cinema so we went to see abraham lincoln: vampire hunter which of course as a premise is utterly ridiculous, but it wasn't actually a bad film it was very entertaining and there were some good twists..plus i like dominic cooper and i thought that the guy playing abraham lincoln was kinda fit before he 'aged'

so it's actually been an all right day interesting but i'm tired now i still had to go to work unfortunately..

Lyrics: the moment i said it / imogen heap

It started out with a kiss how did it end up like this it was only a kiss it was only a kiss

Considering I have an exam tomorrow I should probs go to sleep rather than lounging on my bed daydreaming..seriously it's weird I have no motivation to do something as easy as going to sleep..

Lyrics: mr brightside / the killers

I want to be drunk when I wake up on the right side of the wrong bed and every excuse I made up tell you the truth what didn't kill me it didn't make me stronger at all

sorry i haven't updated 'star rising' in a while, my classics exams were on tuesday and thursday and i've pretty much been revising since then what with work and everything i haven't had the energy motivation or clarity of mind to actually sit down and write a story because whenever i tried the attempts have been shit

but now classics is done i'm not struggling as much with other subjects so i might have time to write more often

Lyrics: drunk / ed sheeran

I am an arrow with no direction my life your tarot my picture your fate I'm your becoming so I'll always be nothing if I ever break away from you that day forth you'll be living my hate

haha my exam is tomorrow and i cannot revise anymore because it isn't going in and it doesn't make sense and tbh i can't be bothered in this weather it is too hot my mind feels like a mush and my legs have died, i'll just have to wait and see what the question is and not think about it i just need to r e l a x

Lyrics: useless / imogen heap

If someone said three years from now you'd be long gone I'd stand up and punch them out because they're all wrong and that last kiss I'll cherish until we meet again and time makes it harder I wish I could remember but I keep your memory you visit me in my sleep my darling who knew

i feel so crappy atm i can't wait for college to be over..i actually have a cold or something it's one of those where you just feel nauseous every time you move but you can't be sick aside from that i feel all right but i'm just so tired and i can't concentrate on college work i just want to have nothing to worry about but my cat cupcakes stories reality television and work

that's it that's all i want

Lyrics: who knew / pink

I am a dash and you are a dot when will you see that I am all that you've got I'm a binary code that you cracked long ago but to you I'm just a novel that you wish you'd never wrote

so tired :( an extra hour is a nightmare plus the floors i was doing were bigger than mine, more bins etc and i had an allergic reaction to some mould on a bin and i had to put some cream on it and then this werid guy on one of the floors was trying to get me to put some coffee on it and i was like, no why would i, and then my supervisor came over and with the allergy cream it's gone down now thankfully

one of my piercings is really badly infected there's like a boil on it and it's not pretty i'm going to see the doctor and pray he doesn't tell me to take out the piercing..and i'm really hungry so tbh i'm not in the best of moods right now

Lyrics: academia / sia

So maybe I do not have the time fair weather friends of mine a year's a long time to be doing nothing with your life

today was my day off

i didn't do anything all day but play around on pottermore, i forgot how much i lovelovelove harry potter tbh. i can't wait for this weekend now i just want to see it all

btw i'm a ravenclaw, my wand is alder with a unicorn hair core, 12 and 1/4 inches, springy and i'm shit at making potions but what can you do?

now i'm waiting to watch the great british menu before bed, i'm so tired because i worked extra hard at work today to make sure everything was in tip top shape for the inspection tomorrow that probably won't happen because our supervisor is terrible at her job and can't clean for shit

Lyrics: our bovine public / the cribs

Come in come in come into my world I've got to show show show you come into my bed I've got to know know know you

ahhh i'm so tired :( i forgot about being at college and how long the day is and how early you have to get up

Lyrics: hotel song / regina spektor

Well you said that we would still be friends but I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

so after i went to see the hunger games, i went home, had my tea, and then watched tv

i stupidly went to bed at around midnight, which was funny considering i had to be up at 2 o'clock.

getting up that early was so hard i never thought i was going to manage it but i did, then my friend H came and we picked up my friend T and then H's mum drove us to the airport

i'd never flown before so i was pretty scared i didn't really know what to expect..we didn't have to wait long at the airport for everyone else to arrive and then we checked in which was easier than i thought it'd be, security wasn't pleasant because i had to take my shoes off and i forgot to put socks on so that was a bit awkward but at least the sensors didn't go off and i didn't get my bag searched

we hung around in a cafe for about an hour eating chocolate croissants before we had to board the plane, it was still really dark outside by this point and it felt dead strange when we finally had to walk out to the plane. i ended up sat next to my friend T and H sat with another girl S..T is a nervous flyer and it turns out i am too so it wasn't the best of pairings haha

i really didn't enjoy flying, i mean it wasn't so bad but i just didn't like it i can't really explain why..i felt like i was in a coach and i hate coaches. the man sat next to me ate a burger king really loudly and obnoxiously so i automatically hated him but then his pregnant wife fainted and he ended up moving, this happened when i was asleep so it was a bit awkward when i sat up and it was some guy from my college just sat next to me giving me a funny look because i might have grabbed his ankle in surprise

the landing was horrible the plane actually bounced and people screamed, it was terrible but we were in italy so i was excited and i forgot about how horrible it was and now horrible the little bus was that took us to the airport

the weather was lovely in italy though, once we had our luggage and got onto the coach you could really see how sunny it was. the buildings there were rundown but there was a certain charm to them but you literally couldn't move for buildings; it was bizarre because in england there's a lot of countryside and spaces without buildings but this was the opposite. on the coach we met our tour guide, he was this very stereotypical italian man who turned out to be a casual racist which was uncomfortable sometimes.

he took us for pizza at this restaurant, pizza was quite nice i suppose but the waiter refused to give us any change and he got angry when the teacher tried to argue with him so we just left it especially because we were convinced this old man sat there glaring at us was a mafioso of some kind

then we went on to the hotel we had been promised that it was a four star hotel but it probably wasn't. it was nice in its own way, it wasn't a bad place at all everything was good quality it just hadn't been kept as well as it could have. i ended up sharing with two other girls, V and M (V i have been good friends with since year 7 and M is in my classics and we talk every so often)

once we had settled in we went to the beach which was a really loooooooong walk..the beach was nice though some people went in the sea but i didn't, i sat there with H and we had a chat about how moody T was being because she didn't like italy

walking back to the hotel practically killed me because i'm so unfit and we had to go up all of these stairs, it turns out that most of naples is on a hill of some kind which destroys your legs after a while

we'd only been at the hotel for 5 minutes before we set off for the train station to go to sorrento. the train was all right because it turned out to be more like a tram which i'm used to from home plus the journey was quite short, sorrento was nice and there were some cute shops there, could barely move for oranges and lemons though

we stocked up on bottled water because we didn't know what the hotel would give us

dinner was disgusting though, the minestrone soup tasted like salt, and whoever concieved of giving us aubergine and chips for a main needs to be shot. i think that we all went to bed hungry haha.

by this point i was exhausted and going slightly mad because i was running on 2 hours sleep more or less and the teachers kept us doing things constantly so i was realllllly tired

but an early night was not to be as it turned out because M has these friends, C and W (both boys) who wanted to sit and talk to her so they came into our room and then all of V's friends (all boys) came to sit with us too and it wasn't long before they cracked out some beer and C got out his playing cards and we played bullshit and poker until the teacher came around and told them to go back to their own rooms

no one bothered arguing because we were all tired and we crawled into bed and went to sleep ending our very long day

Lyrics: somebody that I used to know / gotye

Walcott don't you know that it's insane don't you want to get out of Cape Cod out of Cape Cod tonight

i've been so tired lately :( can't sleep i've been obsessively reading bad cheesy romances on my iphone because they were free but i've almost run out of choices, oh dear

now i'm gonna go and start writing chapter 13

Lyrics: walcott / vampire weekend

Flicking through a little book of sex tips remember when the boys were all electric

It's been a looooong day, tbh not really looking forward to tomorrow either..but what's new? It's more that tomorrow has 2 hour & a half lessons which just drag especially classics which is dry on the best of days but my friend in that class isn't in tomorrow

So I'm on my own with kind of friends and people I never talk to some of whom are complete jerks to be quite honest

Some are all right, others are lovely..there's one person I can talk to in that class but sometimes it's a bit awkward because he likes me likes me and I don't feel the same way..and sometimes his mates can make it a bit awkward because they know that's how he feels

And my friends think that I feel the same way but I don't at all I think he's a nice guy but he's not my type, we have a different sense of humour, he's a science nerd and I'm a literature history geek, I like men to be men but he's a little effeminate

It wouldn't work basically it's like Sophie choosing Ashley or something

Lyrics: fluorescent adolescent / arctic monkeys

You are the hole in my head you are the space in my bed you are the silence in between what I thought and what I said

today has actually been really busy i went shopping with my mother and blew almost my entire wage on clothes for Pompeii and on random jewellery as usual hahaha

i'm exhausted now though..i was up too early and out too long, just relaxing now and waiting for food :)

Lyrics: no light, no light / florence + the machine

You're reading Fitzgerald you're reading Hemingway they're both super smart and drinking in the cafes

ridiculously tired but waiting up just so i can watch family guy at 11.50 i'm so sad and i have no life, pretty sure that most people my age are out clubbing or drunking or dropping acid right now but not me, i've watched tv drank orange juice and written stories all night

plus my mum keeps on hiccupping and it's really infuriating me

Lyrics: poor little rich boy / regina spektor

Slowly walking down the hall faster than a cannonball where were you while we were getting high someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide in a champagne supernova in the sky

had a good day went shopping with my friends way too early got my ear pierced, not the daith as planned because the piercer said that he thought that area on my ear wasn't pronounced enough and besides he didn't have any jewellery for it, so i got my conch done instead, wish i'd gone for the rook but at least i've got experience with a conch before haha, and then we went shopping in this really cool building made up of little independent stores, i bought a bag with 'my neighbour totoro' on it and a necklace and some socks, then we went round the proper shopping centre but there wasn't much there so we went to the mcdonalds nearby for our dinner :) felt very fat afterwards but i'm sure i walked off the 1000000+ calories i amassed there just going around primark lmao..

seriously tired now though, glad i'm at home and i'm ready to write!

Lyrics: champagne supernova / oasis

I'm sorry I can't steal you I'm sorry I can't stay so I put band aids on your knees and watch you fly away

Can't believe I'm sitting an exam tomorrow and I haven't even read the texts since last June. Thank god its an open book exam, my last chance to do one if those haha.

I had to steal the books from the English room today the teacher wasn't impressed, he was all "how have you been revising without the books?" which is a fair comment I guess but I just said I had notes left from last year and he seemed to believe me...

Tomorrow is gonna be such a long day, exam at 9 till 11 then lessons till half 4 then walk home then in work at 6, finish at 8 and done...yeahhh I need my sleep now :P

Lyrics: a bird's song / ingrid michaelson

He holds me in his big arms drunk and I am seeing stars this is all I think of

Can't stop sneezing and all I can hear in my head is video games by lana del rey, maybe I should just go to sleep

Lyrics: video games / lana del rey

My therapist said not to see you no more she said you're like a disease without any cure

Watching American dad in bed...the day off tomorrow seems glorious (forgetting that I'm still in work).

I'm sleepy so I'll probably switch off after this episode finishes. Where does the day go at all?

Lyrics: laid / james