I've got some friends, some that I hardly know, but we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world; we chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

so on friday my friend's parents came to see her and she asked us to go to the pub to meet them, so we all went, which was nice, and then they invited us out for an indian afterwards which was also very nice

then we went in one of THE most local pubs in the area and it turned out to be karaoke night and we were pretty freaked out at first because it was soooo local but then as we got drunker it got better

but then my friend got upset because the guy she'd been seeing messaged her to say he wanted to be just friends, so that was a bit shitty she spent a lot of time crying and i spent a lot of time comforting her

but then we were drunk and singing and dancing around and being hit on by 40 year old builders buying us jack daniels and coke so it s'allgood

Lyrics: swing life away / rise against

But that's how it's got to be it's coming down to nothing more than apathy I'd rather run the other way than stay and see the smoke and who's still standing when it clears

is it bad that watching car crashes on jeremy kyle makes me feel better about myself as a person? i mean, i'm a virgin with laughable experience with boys but that's not such a bad thing when you look at these girls having DNA tests on their 7 children with 12 potential fathers who hate their mothers and may have had chlamydia at some point in their lives..at least i'm happy

Lyrics: over my head (cable car) / the fray

The book of love is long and boring no one can lift the damn thing it's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing but I I love it when you read to me and you you can read me anything

so i go on facebook and i'm just looking through my newsfeed and it's like suddenly out of nowhere everyone i'm friends with on facebook who is in a relationship with someone has decided to be disgustingly cute about it and be al smoochy and public and i'm just there like grrrrr -_-

i just wish like i wish i had the confidence to talk to boys properly like i would talk to girls..i mean i can do it but i have to force myself to and those boys i can talk to i don't see like that at all

like the effeminate boy that likes me (but he doesn't really anymore) i get on really well with him but i never ever saw him as being well this sounds really bad but i didn't really see him as a boy and therefore he didn't really bother me

there is this one boy that i like, but it's because he's like my brothers i know that sounds a bit creepy but his sense of humour attitude etc is very similiar to the men i'm used to at home but the thing is whenever i talk to him or try and join in with his jokes to me it just sounds really desperate and try hard so i've stopped trying but i know that in some way if i could just get over being awkward around him we'd probably work

plus to make things worse he apparently really likes this other girl we both know and even though she doesn't feel the same i know he's probably not interested in anyone but her but ysee they both went to pompeii and i saw their relationship from both perspectives because she would just talk about it to me and he would talk about it to his friend and he was all 'i'm just pleased that she's talking to me now' so god knows.

gah idk grrrr

Lyrics: book of love / peter gabriel

Flicking through a little book of sex tips remember when the boys were all electric

It's been a looooong day, tbh not really looking forward to tomorrow either..but what's new? It's more that tomorrow has 2 hour & a half lessons which just drag especially classics which is dry on the best of days but my friend in that class isn't in tomorrow

So I'm on my own with kind of friends and people I never talk to some of whom are complete jerks to be quite honest

Some are all right, others are lovely..there's one person I can talk to in that class but sometimes it's a bit awkward because he likes me likes me and I don't feel the same way..and sometimes his mates can make it a bit awkward because they know that's how he feels

And my friends think that I feel the same way but I don't at all I think he's a nice guy but he's not my type, we have a different sense of humour, he's a science nerd and I'm a literature history geek, I like men to be men but he's a little effeminate

It wouldn't work basically it's like Sophie choosing Ashley or something

Lyrics: fluorescent adolescent / arctic monkeys

You're such a sucker for a sweet talker

Do you ever think that some people are just plain stupid? I do, especially when they have the audacity to criticise others for behaving in the same way. Take this girl I know; she is always the first to have a go when she's decided you've done something stupid, but then behaves in a completely hypocritical manner. She has been with this lad for about 4 years and throughout the last 3 he has consistently cheated on her with various girls including friends of hers. This includes sending dodgy texts and Facebook messages to any girl he knows. She has turned a blind eye to all of this, refusing to acknowledge the truth and accusing the girls he has tried to sleep with (who then went and told everyone exactly what he was like) of being desperate, lying troublemakers.

Then, over Christmas, it came out that he had been sleeping with this girl for the last 6 months, and there was proof from loads of people; they broke up, but she's already gone back to him. And this isn't the first time, either, he left her for another girl for about 4 months.

But I can't help but pity her. Does she not realise that's what people think when they look at her? That she's putting up with a hell of a lot and not getting much in return? He treats her like shit, too, and we've all known about this cheating for ages...I just think that she is so, so stupid, and seems more and more desperate every time something like this happens. It's a self respect thing and clearly, she hasn't got any.

Hell, if I ever acted like her my mother would slap me. And I would let her.

Lyrics: cute without the 'e' (cut from the team) / taking back Sunday

If I kiss you where it's sore will you feel better

Sat in the library with a boy who likes me but I have no feelings for...awkward

Lyrics: better / regina spektor