How you see me how you see me you say that you can see me but I can't see you looking anymore how you know me how you know me you saying that you know me but I don't see us talking anymore

i went to that fancy dress party last night i went as a crap / slightly slutty audrey hepburn..it wasn't as bad as i was expecting i did end up sat on my own for a while but i didn't really mind i had three pints of cider and enjoyed watching everybody else making a tit of themselves on the dancefloor

i was pretty drunk by the time i got home though i tried to climb the stairs like they were a mountain and my mum had to put me to bed i can't really handle alcohol

and today i went out for a meal with my family because it's father's day and we went shopping as well i bought a couple of necklaces a cardigan some earrings..i also went shopping with my mother yesterday and bought a few things it's been a good weekend basically

Lyrics: open up your arms / ren harvieu

Picture fresh as water clear days have passed without you here street lights dancing on the dark across the park waiting from a word from you waiting for a sign or two footsteps on the city ground you know the sound

so i've got that fancy dress party on saturday..i'm going as a crap audrey hepburn and i don't want to go i've got nothing against the people going they're just not my best friends and that unnerves me a little because i don't know what to do like who to spend time with etc because i'll just feel like a hanger on

but that said it's not like i'll ever have to see them again once the party is over which begs the question why the fuck am i going?

Lyrics: brother sparrow / agnes obel

Do you still feel younger than you thought you would by or darling have you started feeling old yet don't worry I'm sure that you're still breaking hearts with the efficiency that only youth can harness

i got a surprise before a guy in my classics class invited me to his 18th..wasn't expecting it haha we talk a little but not so much but it was a pleasant surprise

it's fancy dress, movie themed which is bloody awkard for me haha i don't really watch films i'm too picky about them so i'm instantly stumped at what to go as

i considered rosemary from rosemary's baby because of my hair but then i was like i'm not blonde and it's not instantly recognisable

so we'll see

Lyrics: love is a laserquest / arctic monkeys

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head I come undone at the things he said and he's so funny in his bright red shirt we were all in love and we all got hurt

This week is gonna be dead weird and awkward I can tell

Basically on Wednesday I'm going to my first choice uni to see the campus and meet the professors and I'm well scared but excited and it's not a good situation hahaha

But I'm staying w/ my grandparents or 2 days because it's nearer to the uni

I love my nana and everything but staying at her house is exhausting in its own way she talks too much and most of it is the same thing again and again

And on Saturday I'm going to an 18th which I don't want to go to because it's fancy dress and I don't like fancy dress plus there was a fuck up with my original costume so I've had to hastily improvise on the internet and hope it all arrives in time

Lyrics: white houses / Vanessa carlton

Baby you make my heart beat faster

Discussions of Sunday and fancy dress parties with my best friends :D highlight of my day haha after 2 really boring lessons where nothing was achieved, so no we're being equally pointless...now my friend has pulled galaxy cookie crumble out of her bag ;)

Lyrics: beat your heart out / the distillers