When I'm down, and my hands are tied, I cannot reach a pen for me to draw the line; from this pain I just can't disguise, it's gonna hurt but I'll have to say goodbye

right now i couldn't give less of a shit about my weight, this is the conclusion i have come to i am pretty happy with my body so what does anyone else matter? seriously society shouldn't be able to dictate i should look more like a victoria's secret model, it's never going to happen..partly because i'm not built like that, i've always been chubby, and secondly, i lack the drive to get up off my arse and do something about it

i just really object to people saying that we NEED to have a healthy diet and exercise because i have never ever enjoyed exercise or sports and i'm too picky to have a completely balanced diet. i have never ever made excuses about my weight because i accept that it's largely my fault because i don't exercise and eat healthy but i figure that there are so many things that people do everyday that aren't good for them but no one tells them to stop that

at the end of the day, eating food and lounging around everyday makes me happy so why should i change that because someone on the telly says the olympics should have inspired me to start playing tennis or whatever? STOP IT i mean seriously i feel like the entertainment industry should stop telling people how to live their lives, even if it's just stopping gossip magazines from calling stick thin girls fat because they have a tiny tummy or criticising celebrities for not dropping the baby weight as soon as they give birth, or if it's tv cooking shows making sure that we're cooking with semi-skimmed milk and don't you DARE put butter on that sandwich..

it's just so stupid and annoying, if i want to be a size 16 that's my business it's nothing to do with anyone else at all

Lyrics: dreaming of you / the coral

Put the grenade pin in your hand, so you understand who's boss, my defeat sleeps toe to toe with her success, oh, this is from, this is from, this is from Matilda

i got my a level results! i got a b in classics, a b in english language, and an a in english literature

obviously i wanted an a in classics but it was never meant to happen i don't think haha but yknow i'm really happy with what i've got and they've confirmed my place at uni too so i'm definitely going to live in wales in september :D

Lyrics: matilda / alt-j

You say you want a revelation well revel in this my lover you're free at liberty is this what you want sometimes I wonder

yay i've got a new laptop

i'm really pleased with it! i can now play the sims and not worry about it being slow because of the graphics i like because it's got lovely clear crisp graphics so yayyyy i'm happy

i know that it's supposed to be for university work, but, it's still the holidays and i can make my sims fight mummies in egypt

Lyrics: hall of mirrors / the distillers

I did my best it wasn't much I couldn't feel so I tried to touch I've told the truth I didn't come to fool you and even though it all went wrong I'll stand before the lord of song with nothing on my tongue but hallelujah

my new shoes :D i'm really pleased with them! they looked lovely on the website but nicer in person and they look good on i'm really happy pleased i bought them

bought from asos.com, costing £18 with free super saver delivery if anyone is wondering

Lyrics: hallelujah / leonard cohen



Maybe I'll write him a story and maybe I'll fall asleep in his arms maybe I'll wake up lonely and fallen away again until you calm me down I'll race around this town

got paid today i was soooo happy all the extra time last week means i got paid more and i forgot about another extra day i did because i got paid more than i thought i would so i am ecstatic! gonna buy that pair of shoes i had my eye on and i'm going shopping with my mother tomorrow

i was supposed to be going shopping with her today but it's throwing it down and i cba going out and getting soaked just to buy some hair dye

Lyrics: tap at my window / laura marling

Sleep sleep on the floor knock on the door to tell me if you want some more I can't relate to what's on your plate my appetite never failed before

the only way is marbs, a cup of tea, chocolate cakes cooling in the kitchen..happy :)

Lyrics: run / stephen fretwell

Won't you tell me what you're thinking of would you be an outlaw for my love if it's so well let me know if it's no well I can go I won't make you

i read something the other day about people only being truly happy when they can spend time by themselves and not be bothered by it, like the key to being happy is being happy by yourself

and i've got to say i kind of agree with it i know for me that it's not the end of the world if i'm on my own, i'm a happy person most of the time i have a great family and some really good close friends i do things like writing and reading and playing games and updating this blog and baking and watching crap television and stuff that i actually really enjoy, it might not be everyone's idea of fun but tbh my idea of fun isn't going clubbing and getting pissed every weekend i'm a home person i like staying in

i've only really accepted that recently though because when i was at college i felt this desire to try and be like everyone else but now i'm finished with college i know who my real friends are and i know how i want to live my life and tbh i don't really want to be like those people anymore

Lyrics: thirteen / garbage

But that's how it's got to be it's coming down to nothing more than apathy I'd rather run the other way than stay and see the smoke and who's still standing when it clears

is it bad that watching car crashes on jeremy kyle makes me feel better about myself as a person? i mean, i'm a virgin with laughable experience with boys but that's not such a bad thing when you look at these girls having DNA tests on their 7 children with 12 potential fathers who hate their mothers and may have had chlamydia at some point in their lives..at least i'm happy

Lyrics: over my head (cable car) / the fray

Do you think of her when you're with me repeat the memories you made together whose face do you see do you wish I was a bit more like her am I too loud I play the part to cover up all these doubts

awww i'm so happy right now

we had another barbeque and it was like a tea tailored for me we had chicken bacon haloumi sausages and this potato dish and i was just so pleased with it haha i'm stuffed now though watching the second sherlock holmes film which i can't help but compare to the bbc series and quietly miss benedict cumberbatch being his glorious self

Lyrics: picking up the pieces / paloma faith

One after another you've seen love affairs turn from the glorious start to the crash and burn but now that you've promised never again it's exactly when you fall in

oh yeah and the second part of fruits basket arrived yesterday so i'm sorted for the rest of this week i'm on episode 20 of ouran highschool host club

i just forgot how much i love manga/anime/japan and how happy it makes me

i love their storylines and storytelling because i think it's so unique i love that they in general don't let themselves get bogged down by reality if that makes sense, anything goes in japanse media and it makes for much more enjoyable watching i find

Lyrics: sub symphonika / the submarines

When logic and proportion have fallen sloppy dead and the white knight is talking backwards an the red queens off with her head remember what the dormouse said feed your head feed your head

Writing cups of tea Nigel slater manga phones music clothes jewellery ear piercings Shakespeare old books new books keyboards comfy clothes nail varnish Sherlock Holmes benedict cumberbatch Harry potter American dad tv the sound of trains lovespoons kirstie allsopp laptops comedy Noel fielding Japan Iceland chocolate fruit shoots cardigans boots christina Hendricks laughter Regina spektor fictionpress googling random things debating happy endings true love fairytales cath kidston don't tell the bride Greek mythology Henry hoovers bracelets classic slip on vans dollydagger vintage clothes Paris je t'aime doodling much ado about nothing Hektor Andromache Ajax diomedes ares Hephaestus being small being tall cats sleeping town cider cosmopolitans grazia jk Rowling fruits basket tekken daydreaming notepads joy tattoos France fonts photoshop rule of three odd numbers joey Essex 2 trees sunny days snow Christmas easter Wales pub lunches babies cute things magic beauty whimsy johnny depp mystery Russell brand Russell Howard big brother Jeremy Kyle needle felting scrapbooking soap and glory lazy days the countryside photographs fairy lights weddings 1920s history Richard Curtis films mamma Mia Colin firth werewolves ABBA towie bright colours soft colours brothers mothers fathers grandparents friends boys with lip rings Marilyn Monroe vimto smarties dairy milk Audrey Hepburn rugby yellow roses bentleys buttons Alice in wonderland pugs wii fit chips cupcakes maltesers family guy documentaries Sagittarius my chemical romance reading magazines Spanish lemons shortbread cushions socks the sims owls feathers silly sayings Eddie izzard meeting deadlines hugh jackman dancing and so many more things make me sosososo happy

Lyrics: white rabbit / Jefferson airplane