Maybe I'll write him a story and maybe I'll fall asleep in his arms maybe I'll wake up lonely and fallen away again until you calm me down I'll race around this town

got paid today i was soooo happy all the extra time last week means i got paid more and i forgot about another extra day i did because i got paid more than i thought i would so i am ecstatic! gonna buy that pair of shoes i had my eye on and i'm going shopping with my mother tomorrow

i was supposed to be going shopping with her today but it's throwing it down and i cba going out and getting soaked just to buy some hair dye

Lyrics: tap at my window / laura marling

I have wondered what you're doing every day since I last asked your cheeks hollow I don't like your eyes dark I need shine I need shine I need shine step away from my light I need shine

Lyrics: shine / laura marling

My nihilist my happy man my manic and I have no plans to move on

i go through weird cycles sometimes and i swear that this is one of them

i feel kind of apathetic and a general hatred towards the human race where i feel like nothing is worth it and i don't know what i'm living for..it's like everything i do is futile and pointless and i hate it

i think about the future and i just wonder why? why does it have to be like that?

and i'm scared that things won't work out for me

i'm scared of so many things that i'm starting to think it might be a problem..i thought i had got over this but clearly i haven't

i don't know anymore..i'm generally a very happy person but then things creep up on me and i get so wound up i can't even think about anything else

i really shouldn't let things get to me as much as i do but i feel like i have to be strong for everyone else i know and it kills me

Lyrics: my manic and I / laura marling

Behind every tree is a cutting machine and a kite fallen from grace inside every man is a heart of sand you can see it in his face

oh and i finished reading 'vile bodies' on thursday..

i really enjoyed it, it was better than i expected and i loved the matter of fact style it was written in, plus there were some hilarious moments that actually made me cry laughing.

but i also found the storyline quite disappointing..i don't know i'm such a lover of happy endings and i knew that it wouldn't have a happy ending because i'd read enough about it, but i didn't expect to feel so disappointed? i also didn't expect to dislike nina as much as i did. i also didn't realise that agatha runcible would end up the way that she did i found the scenes with her very poignant and distressing to read, a definite contrast with the rest of the novel.

overall i really enjoyed reading it but i don't think that i'd read it again. i'm glad i've read it however, now i just have to analyse it for coursework haha

Lyrics: The captain and hourglass / laura marling

He wants to die where nobody can see him but the beauty of his death will carry on so I don't believe him

what possessed me to agree to meet up with my friends at half-ten tomorrow morning? have i gone mad?

Lyrics: my manic and I / laura marling

He believes in the love of his god of all things but I find him wrapped up in all manner of sins the drugs that decieve him and the girls that believe him I can't control you I don't know you well these are the reasons I think that you're ill

ahhhh i've been revising literally all day my brain feels like mush :( i started revising at like 11.15 and i didn't stop until 5.15 when my mum & brother got home and i had to get ready for work. i had 2 hours at work and now i'm back...revising again

i've been doing a routine of revising for 20 minutes, then take a 10 minute break...it seems to be going well so far but it seriously could be so so so much better.

i just want to crawl into bed and sleep and forget that frankenstein/macbeth/faustus ever even existed, especially frankenstein because that book makes absolutely no sense to me at all it's just a jumble of words on a page that don't read well together in my opinion.

i've got college tomorrow too which is a bit of an arse tbh

Lyrics: my manic and i / laura marling