My nihilist my happy man my manic and I have no plans to move on

i go through weird cycles sometimes and i swear that this is one of them

i feel kind of apathetic and a general hatred towards the human race where i feel like nothing is worth it and i don't know what i'm living for..it's like everything i do is futile and pointless and i hate it

i think about the future and i just wonder why? why does it have to be like that?

and i'm scared that things won't work out for me

i'm scared of so many things that i'm starting to think it might be a problem..i thought i had got over this but clearly i haven't

i don't know anymore..i'm generally a very happy person but then things creep up on me and i get so wound up i can't even think about anything else

i really shouldn't let things get to me as much as i do but i feel like i have to be strong for everyone else i know and it kills me

Lyrics: my manic and I / laura marling