so i go on facebook and i'm just looking through my newsfeed and it's like suddenly out of nowhere everyone i'm friends with on facebook who is in a relationship with someone has decided to be disgustingly cute about it and be al smoochy and public and i'm just there like grrrrr -_-
i just wish like i wish i had the confidence to talk to boys properly like i would talk to girls..i mean i can do it but i have to force myself to and those boys i can talk to i don't see like that at all
like the effeminate boy that likes me (but he doesn't really anymore) i get on really well with him but i never ever saw him as being well this sounds really bad but i didn't really see him as a boy and therefore he didn't really bother me
there is this one boy that i like, but it's because he's like my brothers i know that sounds a bit creepy but his sense of humour attitude etc is very similiar to the men i'm used to at home but the thing is whenever i talk to him or try and join in with his jokes to me it just sounds really desperate and try hard so i've stopped trying but i know that in some way if i could just get over being awkward around him we'd probably work
plus to make things worse he apparently really likes this other girl we both know and even though she doesn't feel the same i know he's probably not interested in anyone but her but ysee they both went to pompeii and i saw their relationship from both perspectives because she would just talk about it to me and he would talk about it to his friend and he was all 'i'm just pleased that she's talking to me now' so god knows.
gah idk grrrr
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