I'm beautiful in my way because god makes no mistakes I'm on the right track baby I was born this way

the inbetweeners

this may sound strange but the inbetweeners make me feel so much better about being me? i mean i watch shows like skins but i don't identify with any of them, even though they're supposed to be my age and everything. but i can watch any episode of the inbetweeners and i just get it. it's so much more realistic and because of that it makes me feel that it's okay to be me because i am pretty strange, i'm a self-confessed geek who drinks too much tea and gets excited when there's a tv show on I like, and i talk to my cat and have strange conversations with my parents. plus i don't really do things like go out and get drunk, me and my friends actually stay in and play boardgames instead.

there's loads about me that other people find funny and i know that, so i stopped trying to impress them years ago, i'm just me right now but sometimes i feel like i should be someone else that actually fits in but when i watch the inbetweeners i know that i don't have to because it's all right. i know that when i'm older college won't matter anymore the people won't matter, that's how i already feel about high school and i only left there 2 years ago.

and i suppose that's what annoys me the most about people i go to college with, they don't seem to realise that at the end of the day i really don't care what they've got to say. i mean yesterday i was waking out of college with my friend T and this guy from my classics class looked at T and then said something to his friend and they both looked at her and laughed. and it made me angry because i thought, who are they to judge her by what she's wearing or whatever it is about her that makes them laugh? they don't even take the time to get to know her, and people are the same with me i have classes where people literally won't talk to me even if i speak to them, and i just think that's so childish and immature.

because they make a big deal about being 'adults now', they go out clubbing and drink and smoke weed and have one night stands and things like that but when it comes to interacting with people in an everyday situation at college they won't talk to anyone that they don't see as being on 'their' level, whereas someone like me who doesn't go clubbing or drink or smoke weed or have one night stands doesn't automatically judge someone based off appearance or how geeky they seem.

and personally, that makes me more mature than them and i would rather be me than a twat anyday, excuse my language. it's just that the vast majority of people at my college i feel like don't take the time to get to know anyone who they see as "cool". they laugh at me, and at my friends, because they've noticed something funny about us. something that's a bit weird. but do they not realise that we know how people percieve us? because we noticed it a long time ago...and we can't see any point in hiding it because it makes us us and if they can't see that it's their loss because we're nice people.

sorry about the rant but this is something that has been playing on my mind for a couple of days now haha. 

Lyrics: born this way / lady gaga